That's not to say that I didn't find love within those times, I found people that did love me but it always somehow seemed to drag me down and make me worse.
I grew more independent, relying on myself and working on coping skills and managing my illness along with working with my therapist and my psychiatrist to balance my brain chemistry.
I feel as if every girl I date will do what my ex did and leave when I'm at my worst.
Even though I'm currently high functioning in college with a high GPA and looking for a job I know that my disorder is cyclic and could change at any moment.
To my understanding it is basically a combination of Bipolar disorder and schizophrenia.
I experience the manias of Bipolar and the symptoms of Schizophrenia.
My issue with my disorder is that I forget myself, a lot.